3 Bulan

It had been a while since my last entry
Tak sempat doh!
Dan malas nak menaip :p

Hujung bulan ni genaplah 3 bulan saya memegang title pegawai perubatan ud41
41 jee..bukan 44 apatah lagi 48 atau 54
How time flies
Bangun pagi,masuk kerja, sarung white coat, sangkut stetoskop atas bahu, pegang pen dan mula menulis
Dengan harapan dapat siapkan kerja cepat dan balik rehat sebelum mula bekerja kembali untuk hari esok dan seterusnya
Balik on time? Jangan mimpila...
Kalau pukul 5 tu dah boleh siapkan perkara2 yang urgent untuk hari tu pun dah bersyukur sangat2 dah
Selalunya memang ada je things yang drag
Deal with lives, anything can happen in the middle
Patient collapse, desaturation, sudden chest pain etc2
The things that we cannot control
The things which are unavoidable at all

Alhamdulillah viva 1dah lepas
Tinggal lagi satu viva which is scheduled next week OMG

Malam tadi ada medical night
And I realized being a captain is not just to make a smooth schedule for my colleagues
But I have to be responsible of everything
Dah la semalam me postnight, budak2 ni buat perangai pulak
Balik kul 4pm, sempat tido 2 jam sebelum sesat lerat cari jalan ke hotel Shangri La tu
Many things happen last night in the middle of event sampai saya lupa saya makan apa masa dinner semalam sebab main telan and kuis2 je makanan dalam pinggan
Whatever it is, I enjoyed last night
Everyone was so nice yesterday
Sporting, glamorous, happy etc2 (put all positive exciting emoticons here)
Tiba2 rasa nak bagi ucapan kat sini khas utk semua beloved specialists, MOs for all your guidances all this while
Being nagged, scolded is not a big deal for me (except kalau yang jenis marah tak tentu pasal tu, mmg pissed off jgk la)
I appreciate all those thing
Because that is what we called learning process (huaaaha positive sangat kann)
Terima kasih untuk semua ward staff yang banyak membantu
Dan jerit "Dr Zu! Dr Zu!" semalam masa me naik stage ngeng la :p

Sampai rumah dah pukul 1pagi
Then bangun pukul 6 pagi td, ambik handbag (tak ada luggage2 pon) terus gamble ke lcct untuk cari tiket seawal yang boleh untuk balik kelantan
Tapi tapi tapi flight delay pulak hadoiiiii heh

Mata masih layu lagi
Kepala masih drowsy lagi
Dan saya mahu tido
Atas bench ni pon jadi lah

Am I innocent?

I was like an 'errr...' when I saw a quote in tv just now

"There is always a life plan to an innocent.."

So the question here is 'am I innocent?'

If so, what is the life plan for me then?

If got, may I request so that it will be one that I will feel very happy to receive?

Life is getting more and more complicated now
Dont know whether I can survive or not
Not sure whether I can pass through ir successfully or not

Oh Lord, please guide me T_T

#sigh#depressed#cryinginside

Being the captain

"Zu.."

My colleague asked.

"How's your feeling on the first day being the captain?"

Damn!
Should I take it as a compliment or as an insult?
Hahaaa hadoiii

Well it's not the best part actually
The only best thing is that, I'm controlling the schedule *wink2*


Approaching the end of my 2nd month of HOship
Am I capable of treating my patients very well?
That's always be the question playing around my mind
Hopefully, my efforts are accountable eventhough not much insyaAllah
May Allah SWT bless all of us

Welcoming November

Entering my 2nd month of working life
Feeling worderful!
But ouchh will be sitting for my viva end of this month
Have to prepare from now then, no choice

There is one MO here
They said he's the most scary one
I strongly refused to do round with him when  I first entered that ward
The first time I encountered him was when I introduced myself as a new houseman
But one day, I did not know where on earth he then came to my cubicle and did round
And know what, he IS really niceeeee actually!!
So soft spoken.
So kind-hearted.
Teaching me alot.
I even got a piece of advice from him

"Everyday try to learn new things.Always ask yourself, do you competent enough to be a medical MO once you leave this posting? We are training you to become a good doctor so that if you're thrown away to district hospital and you dont have any senior MO or specialist to consult to, you can act on your own without do harm to the patient. Everytime you admit patient, aim to discharge also. It drives you to treat them properly. As a doctor, your patients are your priority. I tell you this because I want you to become a competent doctor. You are a fresh graduate, first poster, so you have many space and time to improve yourself. Believe me, if you trained yourself from now, I'm sure you will become a good doctor."

Sooooo true.
No doubt.
And I'm getting fall in love with my profession now


*there is another story of another MO also.will write on that next time when there is next time :p