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Assalamualaikum

It has been a while since my last entry..huh!
Selalu taip suku jalan je lepas tu tutup
Entry ini pon tak tahu la akan publish ke tak...tengok2 separuh jalan jugak hahaaa


Dah hampir 8 bulan saya kerja
Posting kedua pon dah nak habis insyaAllah
Posting pertama saya ialah medical (perubatan)
Posting kedua saya ialah orthopaedic (tulang)
Dua posting yang jauh berbeza bagai langit dengan bumi!

Posting medical
Rasa macam nak ?mati
Penatnya Ya Rabbi.....hanya Allah SWT yang tahu
Penat otak...penat tubuh...penat kaki...penat tangan
Pendek kata memang penat!
Segala-galanya penat
Tengok jadual rotation pon dah penat :p
Terlupa untuk makan itu adalah perkara biasa
Bila balik kerja malam dan diberi dua pilihan antara tidur dan makan,saya lebih memilih untuk tidur hahaa
Waktu undergraduate,saya selalu dengar senior/ho kata medical posting is the toughest ever yet i still choose it as my first posting
Orang kata jangan masuk medical dulu nanti tak mampu kawal stress lebih2 lagi 1st poster
Stress memang stress
Tapi saya tak menyesal
Malah saya bersyukur susah masa medical tapi senang masa posting lain
Ibarat kata peribahasa "bersusah susah dahulu bersenang senang kemudian" ececeeh
Saya tak nampak semua ni masa kat medical
Hanya sedar bila dah masuk posting lain

Bila bos (mo/sp) tanya, "u dari mana?"

Medical boss.

"Fuyyooo..."
"Tahniah!"
"What a great achievement of u"
"Sape2 yang dah grad medical mmg layak dapat ucapan tahniah...so tahniah!"

Banyak sangat lagi ilmu medical yang saya belum sempat terokai tapi Alhamdulillah sekurang2nya bila patient collapse depan mata di wad yang jarang ada patient collapse,u know what to do
U know what to do next while waiting for your MO to come
U able to manage basic/simple/common things
Chest pain,shortness of breath,hypo hyperglycaemia,hypo hyperkalaemia,bladder distension,poor hydration,poor urine output,bleeding,BP crash and the worst part is asystole or bp unrecordable
Long line,short line,intubation,peritoenal pleural tapping,chest tube,pleural biopsy,bone marrow aspiration,lumbar puncture
Hisyyy banyak sangat la yang medical ajar saya
Terima kasih banyak2
Saya akan rindu medical!
Yang paling best adalah bila nak refer kes kat medical team, ia akan jadi sedikit mudah walaupun tak mudah sangat pon because u know what informations they expect from u
Some more they already know u hahahaaa (ini bonus)
Satu lagi bonus : jadi favourite ho :p  *peace no war*



Ok dah penat taip
Sambung lagi nanti insyaAllah
Assalamualaikum

Just hold on

After all those things (even when it was happening at that time), it is a relieved to know that all your superiors actually are on your side..

"..it is really not fair for u to be treated that way.."
Thank you very much for all your concerns

At least i know that im not bad
It's just that in her eyes.....huh!

I dont mind if physically 'abused' because that is the nature of my work since long time ago even before i was born
But we are deadly mentally abused
Thanks God, we hold on & just go with the flow
Luckily the tough moments finally went away

Just pray to God for the best things to happen ahead
InsyaAllah....

3 Bulan

It had been a while since my last entry
Tak sempat doh!
Dan malas nak menaip :p

Hujung bulan ni genaplah 3 bulan saya memegang title pegawai perubatan ud41
41 jee..bukan 44 apatah lagi 48 atau 54
How time flies
Bangun pagi,masuk kerja, sarung white coat, sangkut stetoskop atas bahu, pegang pen dan mula menulis
Dengan harapan dapat siapkan kerja cepat dan balik rehat sebelum mula bekerja kembali untuk hari esok dan seterusnya
Balik on time? Jangan mimpila...
Kalau pukul 5 tu dah boleh siapkan perkara2 yang urgent untuk hari tu pun dah bersyukur sangat2 dah
Selalunya memang ada je things yang drag
Deal with lives, anything can happen in the middle
Patient collapse, desaturation, sudden chest pain etc2
The things that we cannot control
The things which are unavoidable at all

Alhamdulillah viva 1dah lepas
Tinggal lagi satu viva which is scheduled next week OMG

Malam tadi ada medical night
And I realized being a captain is not just to make a smooth schedule for my colleagues
But I have to be responsible of everything
Dah la semalam me postnight, budak2 ni buat perangai pulak
Balik kul 4pm, sempat tido 2 jam sebelum sesat lerat cari jalan ke hotel Shangri La tu
Many things happen last night in the middle of event sampai saya lupa saya makan apa masa dinner semalam sebab main telan and kuis2 je makanan dalam pinggan
Whatever it is, I enjoyed last night
Everyone was so nice yesterday
Sporting, glamorous, happy etc2 (put all positive exciting emoticons here)
Tiba2 rasa nak bagi ucapan kat sini khas utk semua beloved specialists, MOs for all your guidances all this while
Being nagged, scolded is not a big deal for me (except kalau yang jenis marah tak tentu pasal tu, mmg pissed off jgk la)
I appreciate all those thing
Because that is what we called learning process (huaaaha positive sangat kann)
Terima kasih untuk semua ward staff yang banyak membantu
Dan jerit "Dr Zu! Dr Zu!" semalam masa me naik stage ngeng la :p

Sampai rumah dah pukul 1pagi
Then bangun pukul 6 pagi td, ambik handbag (tak ada luggage2 pon) terus gamble ke lcct untuk cari tiket seawal yang boleh untuk balik kelantan
Tapi tapi tapi flight delay pulak hadoiiiii heh

Mata masih layu lagi
Kepala masih drowsy lagi
Dan saya mahu tido
Atas bench ni pon jadi lah

Am I innocent?

I was like an 'errr...' when I saw a quote in tv just now

"There is always a life plan to an innocent.."

So the question here is 'am I innocent?'

If so, what is the life plan for me then?

If got, may I request so that it will be one that I will feel very happy to receive?

Life is getting more and more complicated now
Dont know whether I can survive or not
Not sure whether I can pass through ir successfully or not

Oh Lord, please guide me T_T

#sigh#depressed#cryinginside