2cc blood 's story

Assalamualaikum

It was 3am
We have just finished coming morning blood taking when suddenly my colleague came to me

"Zu,cannot la." He look frustated

"Come i try." I then walked to the patient

1st attempt failed
2nd attempt also failed
3rd attempt finally was a success thanks God

"It was very hard but i could see u guys enjoy your work" - patient's wife

For people outside, it maybe just a simple gratitude but for me, the words are really remind me of something - about being grateful
Allah SWT has make it that way with reason
We surely can get through a thing no matter how hard it is
B+ = Be positive
Life is too short to regret and do enjoy every single thing you do
Always remember that HE will never leave you alone

A Story Teller

Bismillah
Assalamualaikum

Finally,i can view this blog againnn!!
Have no idea at all how could i lose the password for almost a year
Multiple attempts of try and error before i manage to get it done muahaaa


Well
Today's story is about a story-teller
Being a story teller,your aim is to make people who listens to your story able to understand and digest it and enjoy it
And being a houseman(HO) is just like being a (smart) story teller

Everyday you look at the history of the different patients
Everyday you try to summarize them so that your superior able to understand it in a glance
And it is really an art!
And every HO should have this,believe me

Sigh

Kenapa nak jadi doktor?

Assalamualaikum

It has been a while since my last entry..huh!
Selalu taip suku jalan je lepas tu tutup
Entry ini pon tak tahu la akan publish ke tak...tengok2 separuh jalan jugak hahaaa


Dah hampir 8 bulan saya kerja
Posting kedua pon dah nak habis insyaAllah
Posting pertama saya ialah medical (perubatan)
Posting kedua saya ialah orthopaedic (tulang)
Dua posting yang jauh berbeza bagai langit dengan bumi!

Posting medical
Rasa macam nak ?mati
Penatnya Ya Rabbi.....hanya Allah SWT yang tahu
Penat otak...penat tubuh...penat kaki...penat tangan
Pendek kata memang penat!
Segala-galanya penat
Tengok jadual rotation pon dah penat :p
Terlupa untuk makan itu adalah perkara biasa
Bila balik kerja malam dan diberi dua pilihan antara tidur dan makan,saya lebih memilih untuk tidur hahaa
Waktu undergraduate,saya selalu dengar senior/ho kata medical posting is the toughest ever yet i still choose it as my first posting
Orang kata jangan masuk medical dulu nanti tak mampu kawal stress lebih2 lagi 1st poster
Stress memang stress
Tapi saya tak menyesal
Malah saya bersyukur susah masa medical tapi senang masa posting lain
Ibarat kata peribahasa "bersusah susah dahulu bersenang senang kemudian" ececeeh
Saya tak nampak semua ni masa kat medical
Hanya sedar bila dah masuk posting lain

Bila bos (mo/sp) tanya, "u dari mana?"

Medical boss.

"Fuyyooo..."
"Tahniah!"
"What a great achievement of u"
"Sape2 yang dah grad medical mmg layak dapat ucapan tahniah...so tahniah!"

Banyak sangat lagi ilmu medical yang saya belum sempat terokai tapi Alhamdulillah sekurang2nya bila patient collapse depan mata di wad yang jarang ada patient collapse,u know what to do
U know what to do next while waiting for your MO to come
U able to manage basic/simple/common things
Chest pain,shortness of breath,hypo hyperglycaemia,hypo hyperkalaemia,bladder distension,poor hydration,poor urine output,bleeding,BP crash and the worst part is asystole or bp unrecordable
Long line,short line,intubation,peritoenal pleural tapping,chest tube,pleural biopsy,bone marrow aspiration,lumbar puncture
Hisyyy banyak sangat la yang medical ajar saya
Terima kasih banyak2
Saya akan rindu medical!
Yang paling best adalah bila nak refer kes kat medical team, ia akan jadi sedikit mudah walaupun tak mudah sangat pon because u know what informations they expect from u
Some more they already know u hahahaaa (ini bonus)
Satu lagi bonus : jadi favourite ho :p  *peace no war*



Ok dah penat taip
Sambung lagi nanti insyaAllah
Assalamualaikum

Just hold on

After all those things (even when it was happening at that time), it is a relieved to know that all your superiors actually are on your side..

"..it is really not fair for u to be treated that way.."
Thank you very much for all your concerns

At least i know that im not bad
It's just that in her eyes.....huh!

I dont mind if physically 'abused' because that is the nature of my work since long time ago even before i was born
But we are deadly mentally abused
Thanks God, we hold on & just go with the flow
Luckily the tough moments finally went away

Just pray to God for the best things to happen ahead
InsyaAllah....

3 Bulan

It had been a while since my last entry
Tak sempat doh!
Dan malas nak menaip :p

Hujung bulan ni genaplah 3 bulan saya memegang title pegawai perubatan ud41
41 jee..bukan 44 apatah lagi 48 atau 54
How time flies
Bangun pagi,masuk kerja, sarung white coat, sangkut stetoskop atas bahu, pegang pen dan mula menulis
Dengan harapan dapat siapkan kerja cepat dan balik rehat sebelum mula bekerja kembali untuk hari esok dan seterusnya
Balik on time? Jangan mimpila...
Kalau pukul 5 tu dah boleh siapkan perkara2 yang urgent untuk hari tu pun dah bersyukur sangat2 dah
Selalunya memang ada je things yang drag
Deal with lives, anything can happen in the middle
Patient collapse, desaturation, sudden chest pain etc2
The things that we cannot control
The things which are unavoidable at all

Alhamdulillah viva 1dah lepas
Tinggal lagi satu viva which is scheduled next week OMG

Malam tadi ada medical night
And I realized being a captain is not just to make a smooth schedule for my colleagues
But I have to be responsible of everything
Dah la semalam me postnight, budak2 ni buat perangai pulak
Balik kul 4pm, sempat tido 2 jam sebelum sesat lerat cari jalan ke hotel Shangri La tu
Many things happen last night in the middle of event sampai saya lupa saya makan apa masa dinner semalam sebab main telan and kuis2 je makanan dalam pinggan
Whatever it is, I enjoyed last night
Everyone was so nice yesterday
Sporting, glamorous, happy etc2 (put all positive exciting emoticons here)
Tiba2 rasa nak bagi ucapan kat sini khas utk semua beloved specialists, MOs for all your guidances all this while
Being nagged, scolded is not a big deal for me (except kalau yang jenis marah tak tentu pasal tu, mmg pissed off jgk la)
I appreciate all those thing
Because that is what we called learning process (huaaaha positive sangat kann)
Terima kasih untuk semua ward staff yang banyak membantu
Dan jerit "Dr Zu! Dr Zu!" semalam masa me naik stage ngeng la :p

Sampai rumah dah pukul 1pagi
Then bangun pukul 6 pagi td, ambik handbag (tak ada luggage2 pon) terus gamble ke lcct untuk cari tiket seawal yang boleh untuk balik kelantan
Tapi tapi tapi flight delay pulak hadoiiiii heh

Mata masih layu lagi
Kepala masih drowsy lagi
Dan saya mahu tido
Atas bench ni pon jadi lah

Am I innocent?

I was like an 'errr...' when I saw a quote in tv just now

"There is always a life plan to an innocent.."

So the question here is 'am I innocent?'

If so, what is the life plan for me then?

If got, may I request so that it will be one that I will feel very happy to receive?

Life is getting more and more complicated now
Dont know whether I can survive or not
Not sure whether I can pass through ir successfully or not

Oh Lord, please guide me T_T

#sigh#depressed#cryinginside

Welcoming November

Entering my 2nd month of working life
Feeling worderful!
But ouchh will be sitting for my viva end of this month
Have to prepare from now then, no choice

There is one MO here
They said he's the most scary one
I strongly refused to do round with him when  I first entered that ward
The first time I encountered him was when I introduced myself as a new houseman
But one day, I did not know where on earth he then came to my cubicle and did round
And know what, he IS really niceeeee actually!!
So soft spoken.
So kind-hearted.
Teaching me alot.
I even got a piece of advice from him

"Everyday try to learn new things.Always ask yourself, do you competent enough to be a medical MO once you leave this posting? We are training you to become a good doctor so that if you're thrown away to district hospital and you dont have any senior MO or specialist to consult to, you can act on your own without do harm to the patient. Everytime you admit patient, aim to discharge also. It drives you to treat them properly. As a doctor, your patients are your priority. I tell you this because I want you to become a competent doctor. You are a fresh graduate, first poster, so you have many space and time to improve yourself. Believe me, if you trained yourself from now, I'm sure you will become a good doctor."

Sooooo true.
No doubt.
And I'm getting fall in love with my profession now


*there is another story of another MO also.will write on that next time when there is next time :p

Sebulan makan gaji

Alhamdulillah
Lagi 3 hari maka genap lah sebulan saya bekerja
Alahai sekejap saja masa berlalu
Banyak benda yang berubah
Kehidupan harian terutamanya

Keluar rumah pukul 6 pagi tu perkara biasa
Balik rumah pukul 8 malam juga perkara biasa
Kalau extended shift, pukul 1 pagi baru tayar myvi bergolek untuk bawa tuan dia balik

Off day adalah hari untuk buka buku
Sebab tak sempat nak buka kalau waktu kerja
Kalau ada soalan specialist yang tak dapat jawab masa ward round, of course la sampai rumah tu terus kena buka buku

Alhamdulillah sekarang dah makin dapat sesuaikan diri dengan kehidupan medical ward
Dah pandai cari waktu untuk solat dan makan
Walaupun kadang2 sampai kena bawa bht patient untuk baca masa tgh makan
Dah boleh usahakan sendiri cari venous assess untuk blood taking atau branula untuk patient yang deadly-serious-susah punya line
Dah boleh buat kerja dengan sedikit pantas berbanding 3 minggu yang lalu
Dah boleh present cases dengan sedikit yakin pada specialist untuk satu cubicle on my own walaupun kadang2 kena tegur
Lega bila specialist yang selalu 'marah' saya cakap "U are better than anyone else but of course u have to learn more and be fast. And u should know what your superior is thinking"

Semoga Allah SWT sentiasa jadikan saya kuat untuk hari2 yang mendatang
InsyaAllah ameen

My first night shift

Hari isnin lepas dah offtag Alhamdulillah
Selasa dapat cuti Aidiladha
Tapi tak balik Kelantan pon tsk tsk
Rabu dah start sistem shift
Dan malam tadi adalah night shift saya yang pertama
Dan saya berdoa untuk uneventful night keh3

Untuk night shift, kami masuk pukul 10 malam dan akan ambik darah untuk semua patient yang ada blood investigation untuk coming morning
Kalau ada new admission in between, kena clerk immediately and present the case to MO oncall via phone
Biasanya ada satu houseman sahaja untuk jaga 3 wad untuk night shift
So tgh2 clerk patient atau ambil darah tu, for sure akan ada call dari wad lain inform itu dan ini
Kalau perlu, kena attended stat
Macam malam tadi, ada satu patient desaturate
SPO2 drop tiba2 dari 99% under VM to 85%

Tapi Alhamdulillah malam tadi ada 2 houseman untuk night shift, saya dan kak safa
So tak ada la kalut sangat nak ambil darah untuk patient kat wad lain
New admission pon ada 3 je hek3
Disebabkan malam tadi uneventful, so sempat la jgk discuss some input dengan MO

Memang tak sedar langsung masa berjalan
Sedar2 dah pukul 6.30 pagi dah

Untuk postcall pula dapat MO dan specialist yang best
Bertambah2 input yang dapat :D

Dan pertama kali saya berpeluang turun lunch kat kafe hohoo
Alhamdulillah

Tagging period dengan sistem shift sangat jauh bezanya
Terus terang saya cakap
I felt like quitting medicine when I was tagging before
Tapi Alhamdulillah Allah SWT kuatkan hati saya untuk terus bertahan
Dan Alhamdulillah saya dah makin dapat adapt dengan suasana medical sekarang :D

Orang kata bersusah2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian
InsyaAllah moga Tuhan permudahkan urusan kita setiap hari
Ameen

Call me Dr Zu

Assalamualaikum
Selamat pagi

Day 5 of life
Fuhhhh macam2 rasa ada
Alhamdulillah esok dapat off
Nak gi makan nasiiiii!

Dr Zu
Nama baru ok!
Ini semua gara2 Dr Azzam

"What's your name?"

I'm Zuliyana, Dr.

"So what to call? Zu?"

Can, Dr.

Sejak dari tu la,nama timangan saya dah bertukar.

Muahahaa.

*next entry insyaAllah : tempoh tagging bersama air mata*

Hospital *****, I'm coming!

Berakhir sudah Program Transformasi Minda (PTM)
Tanda tarikh masuk kerja makin dekat
And it's the day after tomorrow! Lusa okey!

Alhamdulillah Dia permudahkan urusan
Saya dapat Hospital ***** , seperti yang diinginkan
Nervous bukan main masa nak tunggu fasi panggil nama untuk bagi surat penempatan
Shaking macam tunggu pengumuman keputusan Pro 3

Bila saya bagitahu yang saya dapat H**, ramai kawan (yang tak pernah tahu bahawa dulu saya memang mohon untuk H**) saya yang terkejut
Hahaaa
"Kenapa jauh sangat?"
"Saja."
Saya tak ada jawapan tepat
Sebab banyak sangat perkara yang mempengaruhi keputusan saya tu
Dan moga ini yang terbaik insyaAllah

Lusa dah masuk kerja
Teruja ada.Takut pun ada.
Kata Prof Muhaya, "Pemikiran kita mempengaruhi tindakan kita."
Kalau negatif yang kita fikir, maka negatif lah ia
Kalau positif, maka jadilah ia positif
Hmmm

Lets be a positive thinker
But dont forget to always prepare for the worst

Title itu satu
Tapi yang duanya that count the most important thing is
The responsibilities

Berbabak air mata dengan manusia2 ini
Sungguh, entah bila akan ketemu lagi
Korang tak pela satu hospital! Uhuk