بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَٰنِ الرَّحِيم

Ya Allah!Limpahkanlah rahmat yang penuh dan kesejahteraan yang sempurna ke atas penghulu kami Nabi Muhammad SAW yang terungkai dengannya oleh simpulan dan terhapus dengannya oleh segala kesusahan dan diselesai dengannya dengan segala hajat dan dicapai dengannya segala kegemaran dan mudah-mudahan cantik kesudahan serta diharapkan turun hujan dengan berkat wajahnya yang mulia.Dan juga di atas keluarganya dan sahabat-sahabatnya pada setiap detik dan nafas dengan bilangan setiap yang maklum bagiMu.

December 31, 2011

End of 2011

A very quick entry because I want to end it up as the LAST entry for 2011, rather than FIRST entry for 2012!
Hahahaaaa :p

Quite a few times this one appeared on my fb wall
Shared by my friends
Saya tak nak share jugak kerr?ngeee~
Takpelah..I share yang kat bawah ni..hiii

Btw,I wonder why suddenly people around me keep talking about....errr LOVE?
'Azam 2012 adalah untuk tunggu orang masuk meminang'
One of my schoolmate punya status laa...not mine
Plus few friends who updating their status on fb with same meaning,I bet
I was like......erkkk?Why is it so sudden?Not one but 4,5,6,7,8......
Owh is it because most of us now in final year and will graduate soon and shift to work life and must start thinking of having a life partner?
Dah dewasa rupanya
Anyway,I'm praying for u guys :)

5 minutes before this entry end up as 2012
So,I'm wishing all of you
Whatever it is,semoga kita sentiasa hidup dalam keberkatan-Nya...Ameen

BYE 2011!!

December 14, 2011


Seem that it didnt behave well to me
My bad day..very very bad, I tell you

From the beginning up to this point,it disappointed me
So many thing happened today untill I failed to figure out what were they

I couldnt help the tears that kept rolling down my cheek
I tried my very best to bear with it but I couldnt
The weakness,yes it was very irritating!

Oh Lord,I knew that all these happened because of my own fault
Not You.Not them.Or somebody else.
My fault because of diverting my focus away from You
So,please God.Forgive me for all my wrongdoings.
Only You,the One we seek for bad and smile.

To my dear girls,if you see me after this or tomorrow or someday else
Please please I beg you!Dont ask me about today
I really dont want to open up the stories
I really want to forget everything that happened today
Every single thing
Pretending that today was never exist.In my life!

"Dan janganlah kamu bersikap lemah dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman"
(Al Imran : 139)

La Tahzan
Innallaha ma'na

December 9, 2011

Doctor and Life

A doctor entered the hospital in hurry after being called for an urgent surgery. He answered the call as soon as possible, changed his clothes and went directly to the surgery block. He found the boy's father going and coming in the hall waiting for the doctor. Once seeing him,the dad yelled, "Why did you take all this time to come? Dont you know that my son's life is in danger? Dont you have the sense of responsibility??"

The doctor smiled and said, "I am sorry. I wasnt in the hospital and I came the fastest I could after receiving the call. And now, I wish you calm down for that I can do my work."

"Calm down?! What if you son was in the room right now, would you calm down? If your son dies now what will you do??" said the father angrily.
The doctor smiled again and replied, "I will say what Allah said in His Holy Book [Who, when disaster strikes them,say, "Indeed we belong to Allah and indeed to Him we will return."]. Does the believer have anything but this? Doctor cannot prolong lives. Go and make do'a for your son, we will  do our best inshaAllah".

"Giving advises when we are not concerned is so easy", murmured the father.

The surgery took some hours after which the doctor went out happy. "Alhamdulillah,your son is saved!" And without waiting the father's reply he carried on his way running. "If you have any question, ask the nurse!!"

"Why is he so arrogant? He couldnt wait some minutes for that I ask about my son's condition", commented the father when seeing the nurse minutes after the doctor left.

The nurse answered with tears coming down her face. "His son died yesterday in a road accident. He was in the burial when we called him for your son's surgery. And now that he saved your son's life, he left running to finish his son's burial...."


What say u, if you are in their places? Either as the doctor or the father. Yes we would be very emotional when it came to life and death parts, especially when involved our loved ones. No doubt. I, myself had been in denial phase when I first received the news that my dad had left me forever and on his way up to meet The Creator. Of course the family couldnt accept it initially but believe me, when we made a resolute return to Allah, then we should be clear that nothing happens in His Dominion except that which He willed, including death.

Doctor is not God, yet he is there to help the nature in healing process. Anything that happen after that, only God who knows. He is also a human,trying to fix up a human.Trying hard, he never can go beyond that because the nature of the job itself; console always, to heal often, to cure sometimes but to cut the disease off, only God who can do it!

Alhamdulillah after being posted in 3 fields [Medical/Psychiatry/Neurosciences] within this tough 3 months ++, I felt closer to Him.I had seen few moments of patients dying in front of me. They were struggling by themselves with doctors were trying their best to save a life and family arounds reciting Yaasin. There were also patients who suffering from end stage renal failure which require them to have regular hemodyalisis every week, heart problems which they couldnt able to even sleep in flat position, brain cancer patients who waiting for surgery to be done on them. This make me thanked Him for the all the 'nikmat' given.The ability to see clearly, hear normally, walk properly, and even fell the heart beating in normal rhythm, all these make us the perfect creations by Allah SWT. Did you ever think of it?

One more,never judge anyone because you never know how their life is and what they are going through!

December 7, 2011

Last minute lagi!

4.40 am
Iye!Saya buat kerja last minute agi
Typical me.Memang tak boleh ubah dah kot?

Depressed ke??
Eishh tak la...

HAPPY kot!
Syok tau buat kerja lewat2 malam macam ni
Stay up buat report or slides presentation ke
Sunyi jer..tak ada gangguan
Ditambah lagi dengan bantuan white coffe kapal api..fuhh mmg betul2 kaw!
Gerenti mata tak sepet & yawning
Tapi.......pagi esok,for surelah tumbang awal!

December 5, 2011


"...Barang siapa bertakwa kepada Allah,niscaya Dia akan membukakan jalan keluar baginya.Dan Dia memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya..."
(At-Talaq,65 : 2-3)

What is destined will reach you even if it be underneath two mountains.What is not destined will not reach you even if it is between your lips.He knows what is the BEST for us.Yang penting USAHA sebab Allah SWT melihat pada usaha,hanya manusia yang melihat pada hasil.

*neuro posting will end in 3 days.tak sempat nak panas pun lagi*

December 4, 2011


"Dan setiap yang bernyawa tidak akan mati kecuali dengan izin Allah,sebagai ketetapan yang telah ditentukan waktunya.Barang siapa yang menghendaki pahala dunia,nescaya Kami berikan kepadanya pahala dunia itu dan barang siapa menghendaki pahala akhirat,kami berikan pula kepadanya pahala akhirat itu dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang-orang yang bersyukur"
(Al-Imran,3 : 145)


Jarak masa yang tidak banyak bezanya
Kurang daripada sebulan
Warga SMSTMFP terutamanya batch 0206 redha dengan pemergian 2 sahabat seperjuangan
3 minggu lepas,arwah Syahrul Yusof kembali ke rahmatullah setelah lebih 10 jam bertarung nyawa di ICU akibat kemalangan jalan raya
Dan hari ni pula,arwah Mazuwan kembali menghadap Sang Pencipta setelah hampir 6 bulan disahkan mengidap Leukemia
Sungguh!Ajal maut tak kenal usia mahupun status kesihatan
Bila sudah tiba masanya,penyakit/kemalangan/demam panas/jatuh basikal/banjir hanyalah sekadar asbab untuk Dia mengambil kita kembali ke sisiNya
Tiada daya kita untuk menghalangnya

A very great reminder to me!
Al-Fatihah buat kalian yang telah dahulu pergi menghadap Kekasih Abadi
Moga tenang hendaknya di sana,insyaAllah

And not to be forgotten,my late dad