Actually I'm thinking of writing this entry month ago but no time (typical answer to replace the word 'lazy' :P ) Hmmm...
I enjoyed the posting very much! (which I think only some would agree with me)
I loved everything about this posting.
Just name it. The specialists. The registrars. The MOs. The HOs. The staff nurses. The parents. The kids themselves. The environment. The diseases as well. The rotations that we have to go through. Ward rounds. Case presentations. Log book. So called 'brain wash' sessions. And also my teammates.
I am so glad to mention here that all the paediatricians are SO NICE! No doubt. They are willing to help you anytime, anywhere. Their words are really comforting (maybe because they works with kids which are soft in nature?). They teach you clinical things, they 'scold' you but in the same time, they put some motivation words that give you the inner strength to move on as a medical student towards the end. That was what I realized (I didnt know about the others).
'Ku sangka panas hingga ke petang, namun hujan di tengah hari'
Everything went smoothly until my exam day T______T
It totally ruined my excitement.
There are 2 things that I'm really scared of when it comes to exam.
First, 'blackout' in the middle of exam!
You are pretty sure that you know the answers of the questions being asked by examiner but somehow, you unable to find them as they are scattered somewhere in your brain OR if it is there, it doesnt want to be spoken out. Goshhhhh and it happened to me *insert frustated icon here*
Second, misunderstood the instruction. Arghhh...dont want to elaborate more. *again, insert frustated icon here*
My beloved supervisor, Prof Nik said when he asked me how was the exam, "It's ok if you couldnt perform well in end posting exam provided that you know where and what is your weaknesses.Then, you will try to improve it. Your aim is Professional Exam. Year 5 is not like Year 4. In Year 4, you failed the posting, you have to do remedial or repeat the whole year. But in Year 5, it's not like that. It's just carry forward mark for your Pro 3."
See, I told before right? Paediatricians' words are really comforting.
Suddenly I felt guilty. I know I can do much better than this. I really didnt want to disappoint my doctors but I already did. I hope for the second chance but we know, it doesnt always come.
And I accept whatever the result is going to be.
Yoshh hang on Nana! Be a fighter!
The picture above is not me of course. This is my friend (refuse his name to be revealed) who did ET (exchange transfusion) during oncall in NICU a night before i did. FYI, there is a baby on the cot. We draw abnormal blood from the umbilical artery/vein and exchanged it with the normal blood. It is the management for baby with severe jaundice. Ohh btw, the clock there is not just a reminder of time but a very important tool here because we need to draw the blood slowly in 1 minute. I managed to do umbilical catheterization also!Yeaa
*no picture of mine because was busy drawing the blood as Dr Syed left me alone to finish the 15 cycles :p *